Happy Post!

This is the spring break I was meant to have. I had fun with my best friends at the begining and I made a couple bucks working but today has just been awesome. I was on the beach at 11. Had lunch and then went back out till about 4. I got dressed and then went out to dinner with my amazing family. We has Mexican :) Then we went to this cute little bar called TC's Front Porch for their karaoke night. I sang TWO songs! And I had the time of my life. I don't care if I'm not the most amazing sing in the world! I had guys at the bar singing along with me and cheering and it was AWESOME! I only wish my sister and my friends were down here too. It would have definitely made it even better. Who needs boys? Not me! Not with as high as I'm flying by myself right now! Tomorrow is going to be awesome too! We're going to lay out and then hit an outlet mall and after that, we get to have dinner with cousin's awesome husband! I'm so excited. This is by far the greatest spring break ever. :)

Too much.

I don't know what it is but when an ex gets someone new you can't help but compare yourself to them. Or at least I can't. I mean even if you're only with the person for a short time its still a big part of your life. You learn so much in a relationship and you grow up so much. Or at least I do. I don't want any one of my ex's to be sad for the rest of their lives. I'm happy for them. They deserve to be happy. But that doesn't mean I don't deserve to be happy too right? I've worked hard my whole life to be something and I'm almost 20 years old and I barely have anything to show for it. Other people don't do shit and they have a life. It's frustrating.

In other news...I'm on spring break. Which is awesome, if I wasn't working 27 hours. Not that bad since I don't have homework or anything but still. Soon I will be headed to the beach to spend some much needed away time with my amazing family. Hopefully this won't be a terrible Spring Break. I just wish I could have had something more to do when I found out that info. :(

*sigh of relief*

Sometimes writing everything down and then erasing it is the cathartic thing in the world.

Always end on a good note...

Well that sucked a lot. Irony is a beautiful thing when applied correctly. When applied to my life it sucks. Majorly sucks. No details because this is after all the internet and who knows who might actually be reading this ridiculous thing. But irony sucks. It showed me what I was becoming even though I hadn't done this particular thing in a while when I went to go check some things out there it was. I guess the last bit was a bit redeeming. I mean thank God I am sort of normal. I need something to focus my attention on. I just don't know what. I mean I guess I could pour my life into school but school is boring for the most part. I would rather be doing something I love. But I don't know what I love. I love music, and reading. I love sleeping. I doubt there is anything about these things that can be constructed into a career. Blah. Oh well. Today was good. Here's why :)

1) Found out I worked 34 hours and 42 minutes last week. Which means this week's paycheck is gonna be AWESOME.
2) Had a decent day at work. No one pissed me off too badly.
3) Learned how to play the HP theme on the piano which is pretty flippin' awesome as well.
4) Did amazingly well on my pledge test that I for real thought I was going to fail.
5) Met and talked to a lot of people in my pledge class. :)
6) Met my big! He's seems sweet.
7) Got to wear my new clothes!

So lots of good things about today. It was also the start of my birthday month! The countdown begins. :) Only 25 more days of being a teen! I'm gonna make the best of it!

Until the urge to write flares up again,
Jeska