Words can't even describe how excited I will be to get out of this place. I am so not happy here. It might sound selfish but there is just not enough me here. I mean I know I said I didn't care and I don't really, but I want my next place to be happy and bright. Not this sad pathetic dark place. I mean really? How old am I 19 or 91? You'd think 91 when you look at this place. The only things that make it a little younger are the things that I absolutely put my food down on. I'm just so sick of people thinking they understand when what they need to understand is to leave me alone. If I want to talk I will. If I don't that probably means I don't want to listen to you rambling on about some bullshit or another.
IN OTHER NEWS, I will be 20 soon and I plan on having a kick ass birthday party. My sister came up with a good idea, she said Cinco de Mayo themed (or I guess we could just say Mexican). I think it would be a lot of fun. The only bad thing is so many of my best friends live so flippin' far away. Hopefully they would still come. Well I better get to bed. Early shift in the morning and God knows I won't sleep for a long time.
Until my next,
Jeska
Monday, February 21, 2011
Wednesday, February 9, 2011
Barely Halfway
It never ceases to amaze me. Change is always happening. Right now. I mean two days ago I was happier than I've been in MONTHS. And now I'm sobbing in bed over accounting homework. No, I'm not on my period. I'm just stressed to the point of death. I'm trying my best and this time my best doesn't seem to be enough. All I feel like doing is crying my eyes out. I actually calculated if I would be able to drop the damn class and get a new teacher next semester. Every little thing seems to be setting me off. Ugh. I just want to be done with school and I'm barely halfway done.
Monday, February 7, 2011
It's a Brand New Day...
And the sun is high...all the birds are singing...
Well not quite. It is 12:30 AM. And the end of that song is kinda weird. But I am a lot happier than normal here lately. As long as I don't have to deal with the few people in my life that annoy me more than, well more than themselves. Because I can't think of anything as annoying to compare them to. Here's one for Katie to understand, they are more annoying then running out of note cards the last night you have to study the minute after the nearest place with note cards closes. BUT, I haven't been having to deal with that lately for a few reasons.
Reasons
1) I went home this weekend and I got to hang out with two of the most amazing friends any one could ask for. We drank silly things and laughed and had a blast while watching movies that were made for kids half our age.
2) I got to spend time with my amazing mother. She seriously is the best. She was sick, but we watched movies and talked and I love her. I would be lost without my mom.
3) I spent some time with my sister and that normally puts me in a good mood.
4) I got to see Taylor! Taylor always makes me happy, because he treats me better than any boyfriend ever could. (At least he's the standard I will be measuring them against)
5) I bought my new computer! Which Taylor so graciously customized for me! I'm super excited.
6) I got to watch Glee!
7) This one wasn't today but it has made a huge impact on my life already, I am pledging Alpha Kappa Psi, the professional business fraternity. I can't even explain how excited I am about this. Like it's just unreal.
That's about it for now. I'm happy. Which doesn't happen often if you read this a lot. It's just a young girl trying to find her way through life. And you know, I think a lot more people should blog. It's better than just writing your thoughts down. It's letting you see them come to life and it's easier for you to examine them. And if you want others to see them then they can. And if they want they can comment and maybe help you out of some tough situation. But now I'm just rambling. So it's bedtime. But before I go, just a little shout-out,
Dear World,
I can handle you. I know I can. I don't want you to throw your worst at me. But I think we can be friends. Let's see if you can handle me now.
Until next time,
Jeska
Well not quite. It is 12:30 AM. And the end of that song is kinda weird. But I am a lot happier than normal here lately. As long as I don't have to deal with the few people in my life that annoy me more than, well more than themselves. Because I can't think of anything as annoying to compare them to. Here's one for Katie to understand, they are more annoying then running out of note cards the last night you have to study the minute after the nearest place with note cards closes. BUT, I haven't been having to deal with that lately for a few reasons.
Reasons
1) I went home this weekend and I got to hang out with two of the most amazing friends any one could ask for. We drank silly things and laughed and had a blast while watching movies that were made for kids half our age.
2) I got to spend time with my amazing mother. She seriously is the best. She was sick, but we watched movies and talked and I love her. I would be lost without my mom.
3) I spent some time with my sister and that normally puts me in a good mood.
4) I got to see Taylor! Taylor always makes me happy, because he treats me better than any boyfriend ever could. (At least he's the standard I will be measuring them against)
5) I bought my new computer! Which Taylor so graciously customized for me! I'm super excited.
6) I got to watch Glee!
7) This one wasn't today but it has made a huge impact on my life already, I am pledging Alpha Kappa Psi, the professional business fraternity. I can't even explain how excited I am about this. Like it's just unreal.
That's about it for now. I'm happy. Which doesn't happen often if you read this a lot. It's just a young girl trying to find her way through life. And you know, I think a lot more people should blog. It's better than just writing your thoughts down. It's letting you see them come to life and it's easier for you to examine them. And if you want others to see them then they can. And if they want they can comment and maybe help you out of some tough situation. But now I'm just rambling. So it's bedtime. But before I go, just a little shout-out,
Dear World,
I can handle you. I know I can. I don't want you to throw your worst at me. But I think we can be friends. Let's see if you can handle me now.
Until next time,
Jeska
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