Rescue Me?

Today has been rough. Seems like that's all I have is rough days, but that's only because I write when I need to and I need to when I have a bad day. Today I need to write because of a few things. My roommates left for Christmas break yesterday so I've got the apartment to myself. Which I thought I would actually like for a few reasons. Coming home to an empty apartment isn't that amazing. I haven't really connected with anyone this semester so I've got no one to talk to about all this. Especially since I feel like I'm loosing one of my dearest friends and I can't even say anything because I don't want anyone to change their minds based on how I feel unless their decision directly effects me. Which in this case it doesn't. I just want the absolute best for all of my friends. I want the best for myself too, but that is secondary. This being alone thing isn't all it's cracked up to be either. I feel like I have no one to talk to. And that no one really understands how I'm feeling. I want someone to rescue me. I don't know from what though. I just have this feeling that I need to be rescued.