Different

Changes always seem to cause problems in people's lives. Just look around, how many people freak out because everything is always the same? Not many. After a big change in my life I've started to think about what could have happened. Probably was going to happen, if only I'd been a tad more patient. I'm not saying that I regret anything that did happen, because I really truly don't. It was a good learning experience, but now I know what I don't want. However, what I don't know is, I can't even finish that thought because there is so much I don't know. I always felt bad these last few months because whenever things got harder than I wanted I wondered. What if I hadn't given up so easily. What if things with you had moved faster. So many what if's and no way to get an answer. All I can do if pray. Maybe, if it's the right thing there will be a way to make it happen now. Maybe not. I can complete that thought a bit now, I don't know if what I want is what is good for me. Or if I even want it anymore. Change throws everything into such a sharp perspective that I keep analyzing every little thing. But it makes me realize that change is good. So, here I am, changed for the better. Bring it on.

Jeska

My Bucket List

1) I wanna go on an Alaskan cruise with Melissa.

2) I wanna see an Orca whale in the wild.

3) See the Northern Lights.

4)Write a book.

5) Buy a boat.

6) Be quoted somewhere.



Will be added to later...maybe. :)

Better Days:)

Since last time a lot has happened. Some good, some bad, and some wonderful. First off, Jackson passed. :( He's in a better place now. I miss him terribly but I know he's better now. The good that has happened is hanging out with my friends more. AKA all the time :D I'm loving that. And the great is this boy. :) His name is Anthony and he's pretty much the best. I'm incredibly happy :) So while this summer has had some pretty bad stuff it's also had some pretty amazing stuff. One more month until move-in day :D

:/

Wow, it's been a while. Things are kind of sucking today so I thought why not get it all out there. So my baby is sick. and when I say baby, I mean my 13 year old dog. Jackson is probably the love of my life. We've had him for 13 years and he's part of the family. I had to take him to the vet and leave him there. My baby looked at me like I'd betrayed him. It broke my heart, so I went to my car and cried. This is when I discovered that my window was broken. It won't roll up. So let's all pray for no rain, shall we? After this I went and had lunch with my best friend. That was pretty awesome. I signed up for driving school to finally take care of that blasted ticket I got. Stupid state troopers. Then I had to go home and get ready for work, which mildly sucked. It wasn't too terrible but it wasn't amazing either. I have tomorrow off though. Then I went out with some friends which would have been good if I weren't so flippin' awkward around certain people. Gah. Sometimes I hate myself. I just don't know how to act around people. It doesn't help that I'm trying to save my heart from being shattered, again. :/ Not in the best mood, trying to procrastinate sleeping. Oh, well.

Jeska

Dear Boy,
You do not even know this is about you, but I feel like I should say it. You make me incredibly happy. I love spending time with you and would like for that to happen more often. We should make this possible, even if you do confuse me to no end.
Lots of Like,
Jeska

Dear Facebook,
You are too distracting. I could not even establish a credible argument in my paper due to your distractions. Not cool, Facebook. This is not acceptable.
Annoyed,
Jeska

Dear Roommates,
I love you dearly but you are almost as distracting as Facebook. This is also not cool.
Love,
Jeska

Dear Lakeside Parking,
You suck. That is all.
Hatefully,
Jeska

Dear Life,
I love you. You are awesome.
Love,
Jeska

blah. blah. blah.

Stop talking that blah, blah, blah.

I am so sick of people. Today was awful. I don't think it's going to get any better. The only good thing that happened today was I didn't have to do anything in speech and I got to sign up on the last day for speeches so I have more time to work on it. The list of bad things that have happened today is too long to post on here. Plus I don't want a recap. Pray for me. Today was that bad.

Jeska.

Skittles!

The last few days have been pretty great. :) Here's what happened.

Saturday- I worked from 7 to 3, that part kinda sucked but I work with awesome people so it's a plus. Then this wonderful fella took me to dinner.He's pretty much amazing. He's also like my brother from another mother. :) After dinner we went over to a friends house and play a nerdy game that I love.

Sunday- I went to church with my cute little family.

Then I went to my Daddy's and got a huge bag of skittles for Easter. After that I came home and hung out with my amazingly awesome roomies.

Monday- Woke up super early and registered for my classes (got all the ones I wanted! yay!) Then I only had two classes to go to. I had lunch with my wonderful Father. :)


Then I organized the above mentioned skittles into seperate colored bags...Now I'm updating this. So a fairly productive day, don't you think? :)
Yay good weekends/Monday's!

Until again ;),
Jeska