Changes always seem to cause problems in people's lives. Just look around, how many people freak out because everything is always the same? Not many. After a big change in my life I've started to think about what could have happened. Probably was going to happen, if only I'd been a tad more patient. I'm not saying that I regret anything that did happen, because I really truly don't. It was a good learning experience, but now I know what I don't want. However, what I don't know is, I can't even finish that thought because there is so much I don't know. I always felt bad these last few months because whenever things got harder than I wanted I wondered. What if I hadn't given up so easily. What if things with you had moved faster. So many what if's and no way to get an answer. All I can do if pray. Maybe, if it's the right thing there will be a way to make it happen now. Maybe not. I can complete that thought a bit now, I don't know if what I want is what is good for me. Or if I even want it anymore. Change throws everything into such a sharp perspective that I keep analyzing every little thing. But it makes me realize that change is good. So, here I am, changed for the better. Bring it on.
Jeska
Jeska
